Kalamazoo

“In this world you will have trouble, but TAKE HEART! I have overcome the world!-John 16:33

This morning I woke up to hear that Kalamazoo was in the headlines, but for all of the wrong reasons. My hometown had come under attack the prior night and 6 souls lost their lives.

My heart sank.

Why did this happen? I’m still having a difficult time wrapping my head around the events that transpired as I played with my little boy in the safety of our home as the events unfolded.

Kalamazoo is where I grew up. Kalamazoo is where I will be raising my son.

Last evening, loved ones were lost and Kalamazoo lost its breath. It’s still trying to get it back.

I wish we could all have the answers we are seeking? Why him? Why her? Why Saturday? Why Kalamazoo? What were the motive(s) behind his rampage? Why why why?! We may never have all of the questions answered, but one thing is for sure.

Kalamazoo will rise up. This will not define Kalamazoo. Kalamazoo will remain united. Kalamazoo will surface stronger than ever.

As a mother, I cannot fathom how the parents of the 14 and 18 year old are feeling in this moment. My heart aches for them. 

I held my son a little tighter this evening. I held him a little longer, and I didn’t want to let go. 

I don’t want him to see the fear I try hard to hide behind my heavy heart. I fear for his safety daily, but now  I fear for it more than ever. Violence found its way into my hometown. Right into my backyard.

I pray that God eases the pain all those affected by this tragedy are facing this evening. I pray he lifts them up, comforting them. I pray for those who lost their lives that they are welcomed into Heaven with open arms.

Tonight, Kalamazoo, I say a little prayer for you.